2015年02月06日

The so-called sigh



For two days, doing the boring, sleep, stunned, access to the Internet, don't know what to do, also don't know what to do, but do not want to do in my heart, ideological struggle constantly, constantly overthrow all thinking as a result, adjustable desk let yourself calm, as far as possible let oneself as far as possible reason, yesterday, sitting there quietly, never move a step, looked that has attended the movie "the willow," xinxin, two hours, sighs, admire, admire, commonplace in his nerve, a woman, especially a quite brilliant beside qinhuai woman, in front of the person you love, hidden in the dark, in the face of his betrayal, silent but also natural and unrestrained and easy, meet again after so many years, still affects the heart, only friendship is different, all come to an own memories. To see all the fickle world, again see style with sleeve, she make the promise of his life, with poetry, with hostile, with enemies, TongShengSi. Envy is not enough to express in words to her, she can in order to own solar terms, abandon life, in order to own happiness, to strive for, and myself, don't say what integrity, in terms of single from his own life on hold, can't get full operation, yu wei said, I since the childhood is the well-know by family, so leave the family, I confused about what to do, is right, I don't deny that no matter what, first of all, I don't want to let them sad, they spoil me love me not let me grow up and then pat wings flew away, I want to have my responsibility, if it were just a few years younger, perhaps, I would be very willing to very willing to implement that plan, but, now, completely different.

Two days ago, dad called and said, you are not home, electrical desk will feel home atmosphere is not so good, maybe my position is not as important as in the home, but just because a word from the parents, I will change my all plan, it's not because I obedient, but even if I have I have to do a little bit of filial piety, filial piety, the word is not so easy to do by chance someone ask me what is filial piety, I choked. Yes, what is the true filial piety, is against the big unfilial, isn't it? I know I don't have the courage, I don't want to see, because my on impulse, lead to parents feel dejected, although doomed to hurt, then I had to choose the person who hurt me also don't want to hurt, because parents from for nothing on their own, they just want to see their children's health safety and happiness, of course, is in the heart of their happiness, and have tried to reverse their concept of happiness, but not success, so I will no longer do this kind of useless, I am willing to in order to parents, ruined his own happiness road, I know, this is very unfair, for himself and useless, but I have no other choice.

People, perhaps, for your initial feelings is particularly want to stay, because really, because of the pure, because they have no interest, because there is no gain and loss, all for the wonderful, once cried, silly, fantasy, entanglements, even then, still retains a sincere blessing in, maybe someone will think xia yuhe commendation is very cute, but I disagree, "waiting for a lifetime, hate my whole life, because all his life, want to for a lifetime, but still thank god, let me have the can, etc, hateful, can blame, can think of adjustable desk." Have a can miss the person is happy, leaving only good is the eternal hope, for a long time. I often obsession in the past, and constantly thinking about the past, maybe more, like film, firmly attached to the head, can't be removed, I also don't want to let time dilute my thoughts, I need to have a can miss memories, have an own secret memory, as the heart-pounding step by step inside said, since then, I was wandering in the world of I and he only, no one disturb, only laugh, the world much good, but who can break all the world, let me be? Countless times imagined something ridiculous, but ultimately can only like chuang tzu's dream, I do not know oneself exactly is who, maybe a lot of times, because of something that is not possible, is free to be in the dream time, whatever I want, I have to wake up from dream, face the reality, to face everything.

Say hello to parents to get up early, and then was told that someone get married today, call her happiness comes into the air, bless her, also sigh for himself, not his horizon high, but because of who I am keep the so-called lofty are all for one, has he, is a sunny day, even in the dream, wake up will still giggle after half a day, in fact, now the age is not time to himself, but still will always show the naive, I always wanted to control their own, but always after each inadvertently reveal a dreamy thoughts like tell yourself that there is no next time, but always break your word, but a dream, after all, is a dream, I never want it can become a reality, if I get, will hurt the people, so I choose to hurt his heart, off the road, and, of course, it is inevitable that double damage. If there is next life cycle, I will make a promise, this life in the future can only to meet with you, to enjoy life with you. Only this life, I have my unfinished duty, you will also have, and then only, only for the afterlife.
posted by DO at 12:56| Comment(0) | 日記 | 更新情報をチェックする

広告


この広告は60日以上更新がないブログに表示がされております。

以下のいずれかの方法で非表示にすることが可能です。

・記事の投稿、編集をおこなう
・マイブログの【設定】 > 【広告設定】 より、「60日間更新が無い場合」 の 「広告を表示しない」にチェックを入れて保存する。


×

この広告は1年以上新しい記事の投稿がないブログに表示されております。